Decrescendo

Sometimes you just have those days that start off great and then through out the day the happiness starts to fade. There's not one pinpointed thing that makes your day go bad, but when you look back through out the course of the day, you see all the little things that added up to make you feel less than pleased at the end of the day. Today was one of those days. It's not like I had a horrible day at work or anything super terrible happened. However, fake people have really been bringing me down today. I guess I'm just letting people who don't matter get into my head. However, it always seems to me that when I need someone in these times, every one hides. I've also noticed that very few people in this world actually want you to be truly happy. Others only want for you what will make them happy. This may be selfish to say, but in the end, it's important to do what is going to make you happy. Also, losing a best friend due to the fact that you have a boyfriend is very eye opening. This may not be the longest post in the world, but it's my blog. Also, I realize it's very scattered, but that's just a look into my mind. It also amazes how some people can act like you never existed. Some days life almost feels like it was a dream. I think back to high school. There was this one friend of mine that I never could be separated from. I was always talking to him one way or another. When he moved to Utah, we lost touch and now I only have one picture that proves that he ever even existed. It's so weird to me that someone that was once such a huge part of my life, doesn't even exist to me anymore. And it's as I never once existed to him. I feel so secluded over here in Florida every once in a while. It's almost as if I don't exist to the people on the other side of the country.  But that's enough for tonight.