Nights like these...

.... always seem to be the toughest. It's not the fact that "this" or "that" particular thing happened. It's the distance that has really been doing the most damage lately. Not being able to be with you is so frustrating. I just get so upset that I can't spend time with you, and touch you, and hold you or even see you. And I don't mean to, but sometimes I take it out on you. And I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I can't be there, that I get so frustrated and make you feel so bad. Feeling this way makes me numb and nervous and anxious. It sends so much spinning through my head. It makes me want to sleep. It's interesting that it always starts off so good, but then changes to be so different. It's nights like these....